Hi ladies, I have been lurking here for the past month or two....every single night. I am a mess and I thought I better start writing for support....answers....advice...etc. A little bit about me: I first noticed my hair thinning maybe about 5 years ago. I went to a dermatologist who said it wasn't his specialty but he could refer me to somebody a 5 hour drive away. This wasn't possible for me at the time...and because my loss wasn't too horrid, I just sort of let it go....then I got married and we wanted kids. I read how pregnancy made your hair beautiful but it could cause loss afterwards, etc. I...being naive...looked forward to the beautiful hair...and pushed the hair loss thoughts to the back of my mind. I suffered a pregnancy loss, then went on to have a gorgeous daughter. (my hair WAS pretty great while pregnant!). 3 months post baby, it started to drop like mad...I was scared but took comfort in reading this was normal and would soon stop. Well....over two years later...it hasn't stopped I lose about 100 hairs at each shower/comb out...not including the ones that go down the drain or the ones I lose during the day....yes, I am a "closet counter" who is admitting this now. Now, I know 100 can be considered normal, but I have barely anything growing back. I went from having a slightly bad hair line to having a horrible hair line, a hugely widened part and (kinda hard to explain) but a few extra parts that go down my head. I have dark hair and a super white scalp...it is realy obvious without a ton of comb-over manuevers or pony tails....and even this process of hiding it all is getting to be far too difficult. I did see a different dermatologist who said it was genetic (my grandmother wore a wig and my mother has thinning hair) BUT this is in a HUGE family and we are the three unlucky ones it seems He suggested rogaine and something else (I forget) but then he ripped up the prescription when I told him I desired having another child soon. He said to come back after I have had my kids. My family doctor said my iron was a little low (15 at the time)and to supplement...for a month or two. Well I have been supplementing with a higher dose than what he recommended for 6 months now and I have my feritin level at 29. He thinks that is plenty high enough. Everything I read says go higher....so I am trying to get it up a bit more...but I don't hold a lot of hope that this is my big problem. So...here we are today..the happy news is that i am pregnant. The sad news is that I was just recently diagnosed with having PCOS after yet another pregnancy loss for me. I know PCOS can cause hair loss but besides having cystic ovaries, hair loss and the VERY OCCASIONAL non-desired facial hair, oily skin...I am pretty non symptomatic. I mean, I ovulate monthly and I am not overweight or diabetic. They said my hormone levels are all normal (though they did test me just after I miscarried so I have to wonder if things weren't what they usually are?). I'd ask to retest now, but being pregnant, it is hard to get a real idea of what my normal levels are. So my big problem with this pregnancy is that my shed hasn't slowed one bit...so much for nice pregnancy hair this time around. To top it off, the pregnancy hormones make me weepy and I literally cry every single night staring in the mirror at my awful bright white scalp staring back at me I feel like it is taking over my life. I feel like everyone is staring at me. I stare at everyone's hair and feel relived the OCCASIONAL time I see somebody else with even mild loss (feeling better that I am not the only cursed one). My two year old daughter has watched me cry and says "mommy sad" and it breaks my heart. I am so blessed to have her but feel so badly that her momma isn't as beautiful or happy as I should be. I stare at pictures of me from the past and compare. I have a million hand held mirrors in each bathroom to stare at my head. I broke down and started looking for "fake hair". I am so sad that I have to take this route. I remember being so embarassed that friends would see my grandma without her wig on...I don't want my daughter to have to be embarassed of her mommy. I am at the point where I don't want to see my friends....just too embarassed. I fear that with another baby, i will barely have time to have quick showers (my husband works away from home so I am essentially a single mom most of the time).....let alone take the time to do comb-overs (not that they are helping much) or even put on wigs or hair pieces, etc. Despite that all, I thought, I have to take the plunge now, and learn how to do this all before it gets absolutely too late...and before I am too busy with a second child. I looked and found a place her that creates custom hair systems with human hair, etc. They seem pretty good (hard for me to judge since I have never done this before)....the problem? COST. $1500-$2800 Cdn for a hair system...it takes two months to arrive AND if repairs/hair adding need to be done, they send it away for 4-6 weeks! Because of this, they recommend getting two! Well, I can't even afford half of one So now I am even more lost with what to do. I just bought Nioxin but again, don't hold out much hope for it...so far, the past few days, I continue to shed just as much as before Nioxin. Sorry to join you all so down and depressed. I am literally sobbing as I type this. My husband will be home soon and I fear he will look at me horribly He hasn't seen me since this last ton came out and I don't think I can hide it anymore....which I have been doing. Pretty sad when you actually dread seeing your husband that you miss....just because you are scared to know what he will think. I'm sorry this is so long...I think just being able to finally vent to "somebody" about my fears and stresses is helpful. I am glad I found this site....I might not be here a ton in the next couple weeks as I will be spending time with my husband and daughter, but I will surely be back soon. I will try to post pictures. Any advice, tips, or suggestions would be great! If anyone is from BC, Canada....I would love to hear from you....who you go to, etc. Thanks for listening.