how do you live with the jealousy that comes with this condition from hell? I am jealous of the woman is see in pictures... myself! Because I look nothing like that anymore! I am jealous of everyone but mostly of my sister. She has a perfectly normal and beautiful head of hair, what I used to have, and a husband and beautiful child. I feel that my dreams of marriage and motherhood will never happen now that I look like this. I know it is not my sisters or anyone else’s fault that this curse has happened to me. But how do I deal with the jealousy???? I pray all the time God please take this envy away from me; help me accept this. Yesterday I went to get another wig shop and tried on wigs for an hour and nothing worked for me. Two little girls stared at me as I was removing and trying on wigs. Will I ever adjust to this life? Will I ever feel normal or even slightly pretty again?