I know that I rant in here a lot but I don't have any other outlet for this. The only other people who I can speak to about this is my parents and even they get afraid to even ask me about this anymore to prevent me from crying. I can't really get help from a therapist and I don't want to go on antidepressants because of their links to hair loss...but this is what's going on. I finished school on April 27th. I'm currently unemployed/not looking for work and studying for a qualifying exam which I will write in July...so I haven't been obligated to leave the house. And I haven't. In 1 week, it will be 1 month since I last left the house. There are people out there who are going through much worse than I am and I know some of them too. My uncle lost his leg in an accident when he was very young and for over 20 years he's been on crutches. I haven't really seen him on a wheelchair even though his entire leg is gone. He's still had relationships, participated in bike races, etc. I just want my zest for life back. I feel like a shell of the person I used to be. I want to be able to travel again and enjoy the things I love. I'm determined to get as much of my hair back and I really think I deserve it. I deserve at least a few years of life filled with enjoyment and lacking difficulty.