I find that even though I am at the beginning of this hellacious journey that I am more aware of my hair than I have ever been in my life....I feel as if I can literally feel every hair that is being shed, I am petrified and in pain to even attempt at putting my hair up. I am at a crossroads between wanting to chop it off so I don't have to feel it anymore vs being afraid if I cut it off that I may never have long hair again. As I guess everyone who is on this forum.. I am still in absolute freak out mode and it comes in waves of "I am okay"..."this is temporary"..."omg its permanent"...."I screwed up my hormones and this is my price to pay"..."everythings fine"..."oh my god there goes 20 more hairs".."why does my head feel like my follicles are on fire".."what if my biopsy results aren't accurate" So thats it in a nutshell so far.... my hair feels gross, my hair looks gross, I feel hideous and I can't stop thinking about my hair :shakehead: But when I read some of the stories on here I am inspired by everyones bravery. You never truly understand a situation until you walk in someone else's shoes and as someone who is newly experiencing hair loss everyone seems so brave on here and I am most definitely not. At 26 I am not ready for this... then again is anyone really ready for it?