It's now up to 9 months of hair loss and the shed seems to have increased. I just wanted a place to rant because I don't know if there's any advice that anyone can really give me to help with this. I just feel like a big victim in all of this and I don't want to feel like that anymore but it's so tiring and draining dealing with this. Over the last 9 months I think I've had about 4 good days. One was Christmas, the other was NYE, New Years and then when I received my thesis mark because I got 96.7% which was a shock to me. My birthday was really terrible this year. Other than that it's just been such a blur...it surprises me when it's like nearly the end of summer and nothing really positive has happened since. I feel so disassociated from my body too, like I constantly feel like I'm just a floating orb of thoughts. I think because I've just reached the point where I hate everything about it. I look at models all the time and wish I was one of them instead. I kind of dealt with something like this for a few months in 2012 (unrelated to hair loss) and it was such a struggle coming out of that. Things had gotten better by August but it was still such an uphill battle to fully recover from it and I think it took around March to recover from that episode of depression. I know wishing is futile but I always try to imagine myself in a happy place though it's like moving goal posts. September has always been "my month" in terms of good luck, great energy, positive happenings. I'm hoping I can wake up before 10 am in the morning and have a good productive day. At least ONE small step.